I miss my father or that bond I should have had with my father?
I met him once on the mid-seventies, twice if you seeing out in LI, NY.
He died broken and depleted never getting what he needed.
Alcohol coursing through his veins and morphing his disdain.
Before every action there is a thought.Be it walking to the liquor store or getting “relaxed” after work. You are looking to draw a heavy curtain on the thoughts. Thing with alcohol is that it’s readily available and has been with for eons. Actions are slave to thoughts and if you are a slave to alcohol you have a tertiary master. Soon the thoughts that let to the actions are numb but new ones to are there for you to succumb to, just alcohol induced.
I drink because ________ Everyone has a reason as to why they do.
Some have a reason as to why they do not stop.
Some forgot the road back other remember and never want to go back.
My father died broke/broken of Oral Cancer and for decades we had not spoken.